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Ismali’s and Assassins


I finally got around to buying a copy of Bernard Lewis’s The Assassins. It ought to be a crime that I didn’t buy this book in 2001. It covers their history from the first rumors of contact with Western crusaders in 1192 with the death of Conrad of Montferrant, and I am just getting settled into the first chapter as I write.

But I have yet MORE books to read and recommend.

Afterwards by Louis Rupchert Jr which is on the perils of Hellenism and the Myth of Decadence as he calls it which ought to be even more interesting considering my view on Nietzsche and coupled with the fact that I also picked up a critique of Nietzsche predicated on the presumed ‘abuse’ of his views in the Third Reich. I am also going to pick up a more scholarly tome on Weimar Germany that deals with ideological history for a more balanced view. The last thing I want to delve into is a mishmash of conflicting views on Christianity at the moment.

I also snagged the latest from Ginette Paris, The Wisdom of Psyche and her old classic on abortion.

I don’t know what you all are reading but these top my list for the time being.

Updates on what is worth it and what isn’t as I plow thru them!

 

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The Job Search Continues


I have good news and so so news. I have an interview with The Cloister on Sea Island in Georgia on April 2nd. The so so news, is that if I am offered the job, it will take at least another months work at Pizza Hut before I will have the money to get my Georgia license, the first months rent on a storage unit for my things and car rental money to get back to Georgia. Pizza Hut is cutting hours and I am not scheduled at all this week. That makes things difficult for me to say the least.

On a happier note, I am waiting for a call tonight from Warren and I hope we may be able to work things out. If I end up relocating to Georgia, it will take some pressure off him about worrying about me being too attached and it will teach me to let go more. I am dying to see him again especially since I may be moving temporarily. I need him and to be with him right now. Here’s hoping we get together later this week!

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Looking for overseas work as a Massage Therapist


I have started updating my Linked In profile to better accentuate my academic achievements so that I can look for work overseas as a Massage Therapist. I have also begun creating various resumes to use for my curriculum vitae, so that I can better meet the requirements of various job descriptions. Its been too long since I last used my passport to simply renew it, so I am going to have to wait for my tax return to arrive before I can reapply for it. I don’t think it will be a big deal though.

I am looking for work in the Middle East or in Asia right now. As soon as I can create a CV I am fully satisfied with and have begun the application process for my passport, I am going to start reapplying to the big hotel and Resort chains again. That is the devil I know, and when going overseas, I prefer to stick to the mainstream. I don’t want to end up working with a fly by night company that is sketchy.

I am not bilingual, so that and my age may work against me but I am keeping an open mind and will hope for the best! Everyone wish me luck! I have student loans to pay for and the overseas experience may be my ticket to getting the loans paid off in a shorter amount of time.

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Starting over….again


Ok. I have graduated. I am not speaking to my mother. But because I miss her, I have started reading From Dawn to Decadence again, which is a history of the past 500 years of western civilization. I read it back in 2001 the first time. And I have tentatively searched for some articles on Jung in the university databases before I am cut off for good. Actually I have been raiding the databases again, while everyone is on vacation and no one is there to stop me from getting as many as I want, which is another story of transgression for another time. I am just wiped out dealing with my Dad’s arrest and charges from the SEC for selling securities which I think is a crock of crap. They should have arrested Mike Carey years ago. I dont know how they have strung together a story that started with a private business investment that didn’t work out to selling securities but somehow they have. I dont know if I will be able to be there for the trial but I would like to be to hear the prosecutions side of things.

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The art of the love letter


I have been writing my current lover on a regular basis since we got together. It started out as messages thru Facebook, then migrated to text messaging and email and now I am thinking of moving it into official love letter territory. I need good paper and a good pen. And I need to think in narrative terms about this relationship. It’s casual, but its very much like dating since we see each other frequently.

He is on his way over. I went to the stationery shop today and spent 27.13 on good paper and envelopes suitable for writing things sensual and scandalous on. It may be an epic night.

I hope it is. I am meeting him at the front door in next to nothing. My favorite movie is on, candles are lit, bed is turned down and the steak is ready just the way he likes it. I have gone all out to fulfill a fantasy of his tonight and he is raring to go. I am waiting breathlessly for him to get here.

 

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Thanksgiving


I have had drama and trauma occur the second week of this month and it was loaded with premonition and horror and fear from 8 years ago. At the time, I thought I was losing my mind. The entire situation is so screwed up that there is almost no right angle in it. My Dad had a business partner who embezzled money from the company they were running and it has ended up a Federal case. The Federal Marshalls picked up my Dad on the 13th and are holding him because some of the investors in that project did not get their money back. Concurrently, my lover and I are seeing other people, and his other flame went down in flames and he thought she was going to hurt herself in  a fit of jealousy. He also had a custody battle with his ex the same day as the Marshalls picked up my Dad and the case was postponed until the 3rd of December.

But other than that, I am good.

My lover and I are doing well and I am very happy with him.

I am going out with a new guy this weekend and he may just be all that and a box of tictacs. But I am going to find out and I think he may be an interesting man worth getting to know.

I haven’t cried about Dad and while I am worried for him, I accept that there is nothing I can do. But Live. And Live I will.